Always in our thoughts…

This is the latest in a series of essays titled “Man has premonition of own death”

When I was young, I joked about death. I told people that this was what I wanted done at my funeral: I said I wanted the room to be prepared before the mourners arrived. I suggested that the room be kept nearly dark, lit by a few flickering candles. I wanted some of my favorite music playing — Dylan and Beatles mostly, but also a little Bach and some blues — Robert Johnson, Mississippi John Hurt, Howlin’ Wolf. As the weeping mourners entered the room — and it would have to be a large room, for there would undoubtedly be many mourners — a spotlight would suddenly switch on and illuminate a comfortable chair, where my still young and beautiful corpse would be sitting up, supported by pillows. Wires would be attached to my head, arms and legs. Push a button: I cross my left leg casually across my right. Push another: My arm raises a cigarette to my mouth, which has been fixed by the mortician into a bemused grin. Push a third button: My head tilts ever so slightly. Push the button that says SOUND and a prerecorded tape — prerecorded by me — plays the sound of my voice saying “I’d like to welcome you all to my funeral!” At this point, I imagined, screams and hysteria and sobs would erupt, while I sat there silently surveying the scene.

Here’s what I think now: What the hell was I thinking? Did I think that somehow death would transform me into Tom Sawyer, an onlooker at my own funeral? Did I forget the important fact that when Tom watched the goings-on at this own last rites, that he could be comforted by the knowledge that he was actually STILL ALIVE? I realize now that this was an important distinction, and I think the reason is that when I was ultra-cool and in my early twenties, death was symbolic, a concept, an imagining, unreal, something that happened to people when they grew old — and I, of course, would never grow old. Sure, I knew about your James Deans and your John F. Kennedys, your Jimis and your Janises, your Rimbauds and your Plaths. But these deaths at an early age were flukes — car crashes, overdoses, assassins were possible but highly unlikely causes of death.

But now I’ve come full circle. Thirty years have passed since I planned my theatrical funeral performance. And somewhere, somehow, at a time and place I don’t remember, something clicked inside my brain and said: “Hey, wake up. You’re going to die. Everyone’s going to die. All of your friends are going to die. Your whole family is going to die. You know when you drive down the street? All those people you see in all of those cars? Every one of them is going to die. When you walk through Penn Station or Grand Central Station? All of those people scurrying to and from trains? Doomed to die. When you’re at a baseball game and there are sixty thousand people around you? Sixty thousand corpses! Every single person you’ve ever encountered. Everyone you’ve ever known. Everyone you’ve ever glimpsed. Everyone dies. And there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it. Absolutely nothing. And…It could happen right now. It could happen as you’re thinking this thought and typing that word. Any second. Like a thief in the night? Yes, indeed!”

When Dylan put out that string of incredibly crappy albums during his born-again period, back in the 1980s, he recorded an incredibly crappy song called “Death Is Not the End.” Fine and good, and I hope ol’ Bob still believes that, and I hope to God it’s true, and maybe Dylan wouldn’t mind teaching me to play the guitar if and when he and I and all of our brothers and sisters find ourselves at one with the universe as we gaze blissfully upon the very face of God. Or something like that. I’m finding it hard to get to the point, and I’m thinking that probably IS my point, or at least part of it. Death is such a huge, overwhelming topic, so impossible to grasp, that my thoughts about it are related but rambling, directly linked but still inevitably disjointed, hard to explain but also hard to avoid — everywhere I look I see death, in every song I hear I hear death, gazing upon every person I see and gaze upon the face of death.

So I find myself like Dante, poised at that gate with that daunting message, that taunting directive that I should abandon all hope if I intend to enter there, find myself trying to complete the novel my agent keeps urging me to finish but instead getting distracted by thousands of thoughts, thousands of images, all of them having to do with death and dying. And I find I am compelled to put these thoughts into words, to try to turn these words into sentences, these sentences into paragraphs and chapters and perhaps a book, a sort of diary about death, but with the understanding and realization that I am not obsessed with death.

No, I am not grim. I am not morbid. I realize that my motivation and my preoccupation stem from the fact that I cherish life. I like being alive. I want to live forever. When I die, I may make the happy discovery that Bob Dylan was right, that death was not the end. Or maybe death will be the end — and I won’t even know it. Or maybe death is not the end, but a fate worse than death awaits me and all of you too. But look me straight in the eye. Tell me that you haven’t thought these same thoughts, don’t feel like this too. Why do you rubberneck at auto wrecks? Why do you read the obituaries every day? Tell me that you haven’t looked at the smoking mangled cars and thought: There but for fortune…Tell me that you haven’t looked at those creepy memorials on the obit page and pictured your photo there under the gilded headline that says something like 8th Anniversary in Heaven…Always In Our Thoughts…Until We Are Together Again. Tell me with a straight face that you don’t fear death — don’t think about it constantly — don’t see the Grim Reaper down the road with his razor-sharp scythe in one hand and his other bony hand with its thumb extended as your car approaches on a dark road on a gloomy rainy night.

Man has premonition of own death

Look at my categories and you’ll see a new one titled “Man has premonition of own death.” That’s the working title for a series of linked essays, subtitled “Musings on Mortality.” I’m hoping it all turns into a book.

P.S. “Man has premonition of own death” was also the headline that appeared on a story that appeared in the 1920s in the daily Yonkers Herald Statesman and told the story of the accidental death of a young carpet-mill worker named Thomas Crooks, who “fell” into a vat of acid. Thomas was my great-uncle. Stay tuned.

My back pages (part two)

In “My back pages (part one)” I listed my favorite/most influential books. Here are some further thoughts on my choices:

Something Wicked This Way Comes by Ray Bradbury. Senior year of college I wrote a graduate-level thesis in which I explored “the sense of the numinous” in this book and works by Hawthorne, especially the story “Young Goodman Brown.” This book is haunting, beautiful, disconcerting – this feeling of foreboding, this feeling that there’s some reason to be uneasy, this feeling you can’t quite articulate — but by the pricking of your thumbs, you’re certain something wicked this way comes. Like Goodman Brown on his journey through the creepy woods.

Side note: I wrote to Bradbury around that time and told him what I was writing — about the links I detected between him and Hawthorne. He wrote back and told me I was absolutely on to something — that he had devoured Hawthorne when he was a boy. I then sent Bradbury one of my early poems, which he proceeded to totally trash, scribbling criticisms and insults all over what I’d sent him.  He then sent me one of his own poems — as an example of how to write a “good” poem – and it was this godawful thing called “When Elephants Last In the Dooryard Bloomed,” which I proceeded to totally trash, scribbling criticisms and insults all over what he’d sent me. I mailed that to Bradbury and never heard from him again. But “Something Wicked This Way Comes” (along with “Martian Chronicles,” “The October Country” and “Dandelion Wine”) remains one of my favorite books.

Slaughterhouse Five and Cat’s Cradle. I basically kept rereading the books my cousin John had given me until I got to high school and got into a creative writing class. Then I just started reading what I saw other people reading — The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand, J.D. Salinger; Johnny Got His Gun; Travels With Charley by John Steinbeck; All Quiet on the Western Front; The Chosen by Chaim Potok; Manchild in the Promised Land by Claude Brown. Totally random. Then someone lent me a copy of Sirens of Titan by Kurt Vonnegut. I’d never read anything like this. I then read Cat’s Cradle and then Slaughterhouse Five, and I was blown away. I realize now that Vonnegut is in many ways a very traditional writer, but his use of language, his humor, his dark themes, his distinctive style, his drawings, his sadness — I decided he was a great writer, and I still think so. 

Huckleberry Finn. I didn’t really understand what cousin John had given me until I took some classes with a professor named David Sadkin, who was a friend of Leslie Fiedler. Sadkin told me I should read Fiedler’s “Love and Death in the American Novel.” Then I started to realize what “Huck Finn” really was – it wasn’t a book for kids; it was a book about race, friendship, love, ignorance, innocence, evil and America — and a great powerful symbolic and cleansing river.

Ragtime. Vivid characters. Great sense of the place and the times. I also very much like “World’s Fair.” Great idea, weaving real historical figures and events into fiction. I think I might do that in Half Moon. Maybe I’ll do it in Gloryville and Rip, too.

Dharma Bums.  But “Dharma Bums” (and “Desolation Angels” too) reflect the Kerouac I like best, the avant Kerouac of “Book of Dreams” and “Pull My Daisy.” My friend Bob Lax, who knew Kerouac quite well, was re-reading “Dharma” and “Desolation” around the time he became fatally ill. I remember Lax and I lamenting the fact that after these books Kerouac began the downward plummet into life in a tract house filled with beer and daytime TV and his smohering mother and a sad, sad bitterness as Kerouac ultimately couldn’t escape the ghosts of Lowell and his brother Gerard.

One Hundred Years of Solitude. A world of fiction within fictions. A world of beautiful magic and blessed coincidences and small events with huge implications. 

The Trial. First Kafka I read, for some reason, was “Amerika.” Then I read “The Castle,” “The Trial” and, yes, the one where the guy turns into an insect. Yes, the symbolism in these books is a bit obvious and overwrought, but Kafka was the first fiction I read that seemed to have universal implications. Right around the same time, I remember, I read “The Fall” and “The Plague” by Camus, and felt they were somehow related to Kafka.

USA . I  like the experimental style, the grandeur and the ambition – the newspaper blurbs, the newsreels, the camera’s eye — the whole thing still makes me think of Steinbeck on LSD. 

Paterson . I like this for many of the same reasons I like USA — the audacious premise, the passion and intellect.  I think I’ll steal that idea for “Half Moon.”

Kaddish. The mystic feel, the deep emotions freely expressed, the way a personal sadness becomes universal grief.

Leaves of Grass. This one book encompasses all — all of America, all of life.

Three Men In a Boat. Absolutely perfect, funny, understated, very British, book-length humorous travel essay by Jerome K. Jerome about three young men touring the waterways of England by barge. Direct link from Jerome to the Goons and the Pythons

North of Boston. Frost’s greatest, darkest, most beautiful poems are in this thin volume.

Circus of the Sun. So Bob Lax is at loose ends and lands a sort-of-a-job with a small traveling circus. Lax has also converted recently to Chrisitianity, following the lead of his friend Merton. So, of course, the circus performers and the circus — the raising of the tent in the morning and the dismantling of the tent at night, the beauty and grace, the love and devotion, the patterns, these all represent something greater — they represent the very story of creation itself. Love had a compass….One of the greatest books ever. 

Up in the Old Hotel. You want to be transported to another world? Want your tour guide to be a writer who’s a great stylist, a great reporter, a great chronicler of lost worlds? The only problem with reading Joseph Mitchell is that I get real nostalgic for a New York that no longer exists (if it ever really did)– in fact, it stopped existing decades before I was born, but Mitchell still makes me nostalgic for it.

Walden. The deceptively simple language and philosophy in this book changed the world.

Collected Poems (Emily Dickinson). There’s Emily Dickinson — and then’s there’s all the other poets. The daring language, the vulnerability combined with a weird inner strength, the “slant” way of looking and thinking, the haunting images, the hymns and prayers, the mystery men in her life, the invented language, the white dress, the whole thing….Of all the writers from the past, Emily Dickinson is the one I’d most like to meet.

My Life and Hard Times. So much style, so much wit — and so many people running for their lives through the streets of Columbus, Ohio, because they think the dam just broke.

The Bible (King James version). Because of its language, because of its drama, because every single story line in every single novel ever written is here, and because it raises the ultimate questions and at least tries to answer them. It has the aura of the divine about it, but it’s ultimately the most human book ever.

A Human Comedy. Simple stories, simply told. For the most part, I think Saroyan is a clumsy and not very deep writer. But this story of the little boy in a little town in Califorinia is a little book I read over and over.

Tortilla Flat/Cannery Row. Same thing. I never get tired of these books. The characters. The friendships. The longing. My daughter visited Salinas a few years ago and brought me back a cheesy ”I visited Cannery Row” souvenir, Better to visit by reading these books.  

Adventures of Sherlock Holmes. My father and I used to watch the old Sherlock Holmes movies on TV, on weekend afternoons when the Yankees games got rained out, and old WPIX would dust off the films starring Basil Rathbone and Nigel Bruce. This led me to the books, starting with “Hound of Baskervilles.” The game’s afoot. The fog. The knock at the downstairs door as another mysterious client arrives. The carriage wheels clicking on the cobblestones. The violin and the cocaine. Dr. Watson. Irene Adler. Don’t you wish this world really existed?  

A Christmas Carol. The essence of Dickens. The great storytelling. The great sense of place. The great characters. The decency.

History of Yonkers (Rev. Allison). When I found this book, written in the late 1800s, it was like I’d found King Tut’s tomb or had translated the Rosetta Stone. After I read tihs book, when I walked through the old sections of my hometown, I felt like I was in the present and in the past at the same time. I could feel the presence of the people who’d walked through those old streets a century before.

The Sketch Book, Washington Irving. “Rip van Winkle,” “The Legend of Sleepy Hollow,” the Knickerbocker tales, the Catskills legends, the old Dutch settlers of New York — somehow the world created by Washington Irving always appealed to me — you can still get glimpses of that world if you stroll around some parts of lower Manhattan. I believe Washington Iriving and Joseph Mitchell would have gotten along famously.

Corelli’s Mandolin by Louis de Bernieres. A beautiful, inspiring, ambitious, resonant  story — it is, of course, about war and faith and trust and love and paradises lost. Just like all the great books.

Rabbit, Run by John Updike. I once drove through Shillington, Pa., Updike’s hometown. I kept looking around to see if I could spot Rabbit Angstrom. I think I actually saw him.

Main Currents in American Thought, Parrington
Love and Death in the American Novel, Fiedler
From Ritual to Romance, Weston
First two are books recommended to me by David Sadkin. First time I clearly understood how America and its literature were entwined. The Weston book is mentioned in the footnotes of “The Waste Land.” I was totally engrossed by all the pagan Holy Grail vegetable cult stuff — Weston’s kind of like Joseph Campbell without all the pretentious bullshit.

Book of Dreams. Visions of Kerouac. Dharma Kerouac. Desolation Kerouac. See above.

The Seven Storey MountainYoung Thomas Merton fathered an illegitmate child. He used to hang out all night at the Harlem jazz clubs and then show up for his morning classes at Columbia still decked out in his evening jacket. Then he came under the influence of some powerfully spiritual people — including young Bob Lax — and stunned his friends by becoming a devout Christian — so devout that he became a cloistered monk. How could that happen? How did it happen? One of the greatest spiritual autobiographies — a man who came to grips with his demons, saw a clear path to happiness and fufillment, and followed that path. You may not agree with his choice, but you admire the clarity of his vision, hias intellect, and the depth of his feelings. 

Fables, Robert Lax. Book of Proverbs? Aesop’s fables? These are way better, little nuggets of wisdom with big meanings. “Alley Violinist” is from this book.

Book of Friends, Henry Miller. Sure, Miller was full of himself, a misogynist, a self-promoter, but these very vivid portraits of people in his life are great stuffr. I don’t like his fiction. But these essays (and the companion volume, My Bike and Other Friends) are so entertaining that I went on to read, and like, some other great Miller including “The Air Conditioned Nightmare” and his account of his travels through Greece, “The Colossus of Marousi.”

Tickets for a Prayer Wheel and Holy the Firm. Philosophy and poetry blended perfectly and sweetly. Spare, simple language, like the best prayers and hymns. A wide-eyed wonder and questioning combined with a great intellect and great love of live and its mysteries. Annie Dillard is one of our greatest writers.

Tales, Edgar Allan Poe. Haunted man and haunting stories.l Plus he invented the American short story, picking up the baton from Washington Irving.

The World of Washington Irving (and others in the series by Van Wyck Brooks)
Made me realize that Irving, Melville, Whitman, all those guys, were all people — and made me understand clearly, for the first time, where they fit into America and into their times.

My back pages (part one)

The first books I ever owned were given to me as a Christmas gift by my older cousin John when I was about 10 years old. Up to that point, my available reading material consisted of the daily Yonkers Herald Statesman, Life magazine, Reader’s Digest Condensed Books, DC Comics, the backs of baseball cards and Mad magazines I read at my cousin John’s house). I still have some of the paperback books John gave me: ”Goodbye, Mr. Chips” by James Hilton,”A Christmas Carol,” ”Kidnapped “and “Treasure Island “by R.L. Stevenson. “The Little World of Don Camillo” by Giovanni Guareschi, “Call of the Wild” and “White Fang” by Jack London, and ”Tom Sawyer” and “Huckleberry Finn.”

Cousin John had pretty good taste. He was a very cool guy: took me one time to a Holiday Inn lounge to see Sam the Sham and the Pharoahs; wrote experimental one-act plays; played the saxophone; dodged the draft; always had beautiful girlfriends; I remember one of them, she and John used to sing at parties and small clubs, mostly Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terrell duets. John ended up working as an apartment building superintendent in Manhattan. He died young, about ten years ago. He was about eight years older than me, and we mostly lived in different states and in different circles, so I didn’t see him much through the years. After I graduated from college, he took me out drinking at a Irish bar on McLean Avenue in Yonkers and I told him I still had some of the books he’d given me. I never did think to tell him that he’d changed my life.

Anyway, last year I asked my friends — some of them writers, all of them readers — to list their favorite or most influential books. And I started out by offering my own list:

Something Wicked This Way Comes (Bradbury)

Cat’s Cradle (Vonnegut)

Slaughterhouse Five (Vonnegut)

Huckleberry Finn

Ragtime (Doctorow)

On The Road (Kerouac)

One Hundred Years of Solitude

The Trial (Kafka)

USA (Dos Passos)

Paterson (W.C. Williams)

Kaddish (Allen Ginsberg)

Leaves of Grass

Three Men In a Boat (Jerome K. Jerome)

North of Boston (Robert Frost)

Circus of the Sun (Robert Lax)

Ragtime (Doctorow)

Up in the Old Hotel (Joseph Mitchell)

Walden

Collected Poems (Emily Dickinson)

My Life and Hard Times (Thurber)

The King James Bible

A Human Comedy (Saroyan)

Tortilla Flat/Cannery Row (Steinbeck)

Adventures of Sherlock Holmes

A Christmas Carol

History of Yonkers (Rev. Allison)

The Sketch Book, Washington Irving

Corelli’s Mandolin by Louis de Bernieres

Rabbit, Run by John Updike 

Main Currents in American Thought, Parrington

Love and Death in the American Novel, Fiedler

From Ritual to Romance, Weston

Book of Dreams, Kerouac

The Seven Storey Mountain, Thomas Merton

Fables, Robert Lax 

Book of Friends, Henry Miller

Tickets for a Prayer Wheel and Holy the Firm, Annie Dillard

Tales, Edgar Allan Poe

The World of Washington Irving (and others in the series) Van Wyck Brooks

 

 

 

The great debates

Most people would think of the Kennedy-Nixon televised debates in 1960 or maybe even the series of debates between Lincoln and Douglas or maybe the debate I remember among my Yonkers friends over which band was cooler — the Beatles or the Rascals.

But the great debate I refer to is taking place in an online forum hosted by an online publication called the Yonkers Tribune, which posted my “City of Gracious Living” essay and stirred up lots of back-and-forth about the demise of the city’s old downtown and about Yonkers politics and politicians.

Check it out. The link is:

 http://yonkerstribune.typepad.com/yonkers_tribune/2008/07/city-of-graciou.html

I should note that the essay itself, which I posted in an earlier blog entry, is really a personal, sort of stream-of-consciousness trek (sort of like young Bob Dylan’s “smoke rings of my mind”) through my memories of growing up in the city, my impressions of the city past and present, my knowledge of the city’s colorful history, and the true story of my mother’s uncle, Thomas Crooks, a young man who “fell” into a vat of acid while working at the old Alexander Smith carpet factory in the 1920s — Thomas, according to the city’s late, great daily newspaper the Yonkers Herald Statesman, had a premonition of his own death just before he died. Read the essay again with that in mind — the parts about young Thomas Crooks are just as true as the fact that Son of Sam and Gene Krupa and Linda Lovelace all lived in Yonkers.

The Rascals, greatest band ever produced by the New York-New Jersey suburbs.

The Rascals, greatest band ever produced by the New York-New Jersey suburbs.

As for the great debates I mentioned earlier, I’d say Nixon lost to Kennedy, Douglas lost to Lincoln and the Rascals lost to the Beatles but put up a damned good fight with songs like “Groovin’,” “People Got to be Free,” “Good Lovin’ ” and “How Can I Be Sure?”

Yesterday, indeed

My son’s doing a study abroad program in London, where he just visited the British Museum and saw (among, I’m sure, many other wonders) two of the four original manuscripts of Magna Carta and handwritten original Beatles lyrics including “Yesterday” by Sir Paul McCartney.

The “Yesterday” lyrics are 40-something years old. The Magna Carta’s a little less poetic but was already, what, 750 years old or so when McCartney got this melody stuck in his head — a melody he originally titled “Scrambled Eggs” as a sort of placeholder until he came up with a song (written by a rich young man in his early 20s, mind you, in which he bemoaned bygone days when he was young and innocent and carefree.

One thing that “Yesterday” has over Magna Carta: It’s a little punchier, a little more poetic, a little more evocative, and a lot easier to hum along with. But Magna Carta is actually interesting reading, with stuff like “No sheriff of bailiff of ours or of anyone else is to take anyone’s horses or carts to make carriage unless he renders the payment customarily due, namely for a two-horse cart ten pence a day, and for a three-horse cart fourteen pence a day…”

And it’s probably will prove to be a little more important in the long term than the lyrics of the Beatles, although I do expect they will still be listened to and revered hundreds of years from now, just like Betthoven and Bach.

But the Magna Carta…I might not have the freedom to write this blog, to express myself freely, if not for that little declaration by the British King John, who in 1215 basically succumbed to public pressure agreed that even monarch were obliged to follow and respect the rule of law. Without the Magna Carta there probably would not have been an American Revolution — in which the colonists basically reminded King George that he was forgetting where he came from…

In any event, seeing the Magna Carta and Beatles lyrics on the very same day seems to me almost more than the human eye can stare at safely in the course of one day of seeing. I’d say there’s a decent chance that my son — who has also seen some other amazing sights in Paris (including Notre Dame cathedral) and elsewhere in England (including Stonehenge and St. Paul’s Cathedral and the Parliament building and, most significant of them all, the crosswalk at Abbey Road) will need a stronger prescription for his glasses when he gets back home in about two weeks.

How can he keep from singing?

That’s a play on the title of a biography — “How Can I Keep From Singing?” — of folk singer and activist Pete Seeger. As if we need further evidence that 89-year-old Pete will go to his grave still singing his heart out for peace and justice, here’s an article from the Rutland (Vt.) Herald:

BRATTLEBORO — Folk legend Pete Seeger will perform with his grandson Tao Rodriguez-Seeger and blues musician Guy Davis at 7 p.m. on Sept. 13 at the Latchis Theater in a fundraising concert to provide microloans to farmers.

The event is co-produced by Strolling of the Heifers and the microloan program will be a cooperative project between them and the Carrot Project, a not-for-profit organization based in Somerville, Mass., dedicated to providing financial assistance to small and midsize farms and those using ecologically friendly practices.

The Strolling of the Heifers — best known for the parade of the same name that takes place in Brattleboro the first Saturday in June — promotes awareness of agriculture and raises money for youth agricultural programs.

“The idea came from asking farmers what we could do to help them,” said Orly Munzing, Strolling’s executive director, of the microloan program. “The young farmers, especially, can’t get loans, and that’s difficult in an emergency.”

Munzing said the Carrot Project will handle the financial end of the program and will match farmers with lenders.

For decades, microloans have been far more common in Third World countries than the United States. In 2006, Muhammad Yunus received the Nobel Peace Prize for pioneering the practice in his native Bangladesh.

“It’s easier for farmers in India to borrow money than in the United States,” Munzing said. “These small farmers in the Northeast need the most help.”

At 89 years old, Seeger has spent the last seven decades as a folk singer and political activist. He performed with Woody Guthrie in the 1940s, testified before the House un-American Activities Committee in 1955 and participated in civil rights marches in the 1960s.

Along the way, he composed, “If I had a Hammer,” “Turn! Turn! Turn! (To Everything There is a Season)” and “Where Have all the Flowers Gone?”

Today, Seeger devotes most of his time to his environmental activism group Clearwater.

Rodriguez-Seeger first performed with his grandfather in 1986 and has released five albums with his band the Mammals. Guy Davis has released 12 albums since 1978 and his 2004 CD “Legacy” was chosen as one of the best of the year by National Public Radio.

Tickets range from $30 to $50 and for an extra $15 concertgoers can attend a post-show reception with the artists. Tickets are available at the Latchis Hotel and Vermont Artisan Designs in Brattleboro, Dynamite Records in Northampton, Mass., or at www.brattleborotix.com.

Years ago, I met Pete when I interviewed him for a magazine article looking back at the violence that erupted when the legendary Paul Robeson gave an outdoor concert in 1949 in Peekskill, New York.

In the late 1990s, Pete kindly agreed to perform a benefit concert for a small, local charity I had started in western New Jersey to help local families with food and heating oil and to buy Christmas gifts for children in those families. One of Pete’s favorite slogans is “Think globally, act locally,” and this effort — unpaid volunteers helping their neghbors — fit the idea perfectly.

His first concert (which also featured Pete’s talented grandson Tao) sold out a 650-seat high school auditorium (with every cent raised going to the charity, as Pete declined any kind of compensation). And Pete had such a good time, and thought it was such a good cause, that he came back two years later and headlined another benefit concert, this one held outdoors at a park along the Delaware River in Pennsylvania. (Both of those concerts also featured performances by local singers who donated their time and talent and got on stage with Pete — including my good friend and great novelist Christian Bauman, who dueted with Pete on a Woody Guthrie song called “Do-Re-Mi”).

Anyway, that’s when I really got to know Pete and his amazing wife, Toshi, and that’s my real excuse for writing this — to help publicize his latest benefit show for his latest cause but also to declare that just being able to say I know Pete Seeger is an honor and that getting to meet him and talk with him and work him will always rank as one of the highlights of my life. The man is an American hero, a true American hero, and how could I keep from singing his praises?

Picture worth a thousand words (or more)

Take a look at this Web site’s “World of Wonders” banner and you’ll notice a sliver of Picasso’s “Guernica” has been replaced by a photograph by poet, filmmaker, artist and photographer par excellence Emily DiGiovanni, who has the same last name as me because she’s my daughter. Anyway, as soon I can figure out how to do it, I’ll add a link to more of Emily’s photos (and some of her poems).

Freewheelin’

Just read and very much enjoyed “A Freewheelin’ Time: A Memoir of Greenwich Village in the Sixties,” written by Suze Rotolo — who was the young woman seen walking arm-in-arm down Jones Street with her young boyfriend in the cover photo of “Freewheelin’ Bob Dylan,” his second album.

Suze Rotolo and her then-boyfriend

Suze Rotolo and her then-boyfriend

Lots of colorful and very specific memories of the folk-music and art scene in the Village of the early 1960s, lots of very warm and human anecdotes about her several years living with the very young Dylan and the heartbreaking end of their love affair. And lots of interesting trivia and esoterica. I didn’t know Gerde’s Folk City was first called The Fifth Peg. I did know that Dylan played at Cafe Lena in Saratoga Springs, New York (my friend Christian Bauman, the novelist, was a traveling folkie in an earlier incarnation and played at Cafe Lena — and just a few weeks ago I ate lunch at a restaurant across the street from Cafe Lena — and will the circle be unbroken?…Apparently not). I didn’t know the Bill Lee, bass player for the legendary singer Odetta, was the father of filmmaker Spike Lee!

Rotolo drops names like breadcrumbs. Her list of friends and acquaintances includes John Lee Hooker, Dave van Ronk, Phil Ochs, Richard and Mimi Farina, Ramblin’ Jack Elliot, Wavy Gravy, the Fugs, Carolyn Hester, Bill Cosby, Jose Feliciano, Odetta, LeRoi Jones…the list goes on and on and on — after all, she was Bob Dylan’s girlfriend and a full-fledged member of that downtown bohemian community in her own right.

Anyway, reading “A Freewheeling Time” also reminded me of my proudest moments as a father. A few years ago, my son and I were walking along Bleecker Street in the West Village and I stopped at a corner, pointed up a side street, and asked “OK, what happened here?” He looked for a few seconds and replied with a grin: “This is where they shot the photo for “Freewheelin’ Bob Dylan,” right? Yes, that’s right. And my guitar-playing son was barely in high school and already could identify this cultural landmark. Stand on Jones Street with Bleecker Street behind you and looking toward West Fourth Street. There go the freewheelin’ ghosts of young Bob and young Suze, shivering in the cold and strolling into the future.

City of Gracious Living

When I think about my old hometown of Yonkers, New York, or return to visit my family still living there – usually crossing the Hudson on the Tappan Zee Bridge and making landfall at Tarrytown, hometown of Rip Van Winkle — I somehow come unstuck in time, like Vonnegut’s Billy Pilgrim.

Henry Hudson’s ship is anchored off Yonkers, right where the Nepperhan Creek drains into the Hudson River. At the nearby Yonkers post office, an anonymous clerk is showing up for work – he’s David Berkowitz by day, Son of Sam by night. A talking dog barks and Gene Krupa’s hands blur as he plays his drums in his Park Hill mansion while down the hill on School Street a young girl named Ella Fitzgerald snaps her fingers to the beat. Forty years later, the School Street tenements are gone, replaced by two high-rise public housing towers, and a little boy named Earl Simmons gazes out of a window and twenty years becomes the rapper DMX. An Otis elevator drops down from the clouds and the Musak plays “It’s Dark and Hell is Hot” by DMX and out of the elevator struts James Cagney, a Yonkers boy, dressed as George M. Cohan as Yankee Doodle Dandy in a red, white and blue top hat. He’s arm in arm with Linda Lovelace, also a Yonkers girl.  They walk down to the train station, across from the post office, and join the thousands of Yonkers residents who watch and weep as Abraham Lincoln’s funeral cortege passes slowly through, and I’m in the crowd, and Sousa’s band is playing a dirge, and just then I hear a splash – my great-uncle Thomas Crooks is being pulled out a vat of acid by his fellow workers at the old Alexander Smith carpet mill.

The men wrap Thomas in burlap and carry him up the hill to the old St. Joseph’s Hospital – just two blocks away from the Mulford Gardens housing project, where thirty years later I live as a boy and look out from our third-floor window at the city’s crowded hills and dozens of church spires and the gilded dome of City Hall and the dark Palisades cliffs across the Hudson in New Jersey and, shimmering in the distance, the lights of the Empire State Building and the George Washington Bridge.  As I look out my Mulford Gardens window, I see the other mill workers who have rushed up the Palmer Road hill to fetch Thomas’ mother – Anna Crooks, my great-grandmother on my mother’s side. Anna arrives at St. Joseph’s hospital and embraces her burned and dying son. Thomas dies. His skin is red and blistered and peeling off like tissue paper. He’s just twenty-three years old.

I’m twelve years old and I’m a delivery boy for the local daily newspaper, the Yonkers Herald Statesman. The bundle of papers is dropped at the usual corner, a block up from the corner of Palmer Road where the Crooks home stands to this day.  I take one newspaper out of the bundle to read (the customers on my route always complain that their papers come late – now they know why). One headline says MAN WALKS ON MOON. Another says FAREWELL TO LINCOLN. Another says CARPET MILL TO CLOSE. Another says SON OF SAM CAPTURED. Another says MAN HAS PREMONITION OF OWN DEATH. The last headline gets my attention. The article describes how young Thomas Crooks had met his unnamed fiancé for a picnic lunch under a tree at the beautiful old Oakland Cemetery, located across from the carpet mill. According to the article, the work whistle sounded at the mill, and Thomas started to return to work. But “before returning to work, Mr. Crooks turned to her and said, ‘I am going in. But I shall be carried out.’ “ Fifteen minutes later came my ancestor’s dive into that acid bath. The newspaper article described my great-grandmother’s arrival at the hospital, just in time for her young son’s death. This is the last sentence of the newspaper article: “Mrs. Crooks was burned about the face as she continually kissed her dying son.”

Anna Crooks, mother of Thomas, was my mother’s grandmother. My mother remembers that her Grandma Crooks has tiny scars all around her lips. My mother never knew why her grandmother had those scars until I found a 1928 clipping of that old Yonkers Herald Statesman article. The clipping was tucked into an old family Bible. “They were scars,” I told my mother. “But they were really birthmarks.”

When I visit Yonkers, I see ghosts everywhere I look. They stroll down the street carrying parasols. They drive fast cars past the strip malls along Central Avenue. They sit in the grandstands and watch the sulkies at Yonkers Raceway. They haunt each and every one of Yonkers’ seven hills. Oakland Cemetery is still there, and it’s filled with ghosts. It’s still hauntingly beautiful – wooded, with narrow curving roads winding around the old graves and monuments. It would be a good place to have a picnic lunch with your girlfriend. Oakland Cemetery is hemmed in by the Saw Mill River Parkway to the east, by the tenements of the old Slavic neighborhood to the east (where the onion dome of the Orthodox church testifies to a bygone day), and by the old carpet mill building to the west. It’s not a carpet mill anymore – the Alexander Smith company closed shop years ago, moved to the South for its cheaper labor, and the huge, sprawling, looming buildings, which stretch for blocks along the Nepperhan and Saw Mill River roads, now house smaller businesses and warehouse stores and even some artists’ studios.

My maternal great-grandparents and grandparents are buried at Oakland Cemetery. So are two victims of the sinking of the Titanic, Alex and Charity Robins. So is a Yonkers physician named Dr. Charles Leale.  Will wonders never cease? No, they will never cease. It is a world of wonders.

Dr. Leale of Yonkers just happened to be working in Washington for the government in 1865 and just happened to be attending the performance at Ford’s Theater when John Wilkes Booth just happened to shoot and kill Abraham Lincoln; Leale was the first physician to arrive at the side of the mortally wounded president, and Leale took charge of the initial efforts to save Lincoln’s life. The grave of Dr. Leale is located within shouting distance of the grave of Thomas Crooks, who abides in the Crooks family plot a few hundred feet from the wrought-iron gate at the entrance to the cemetery, and I have a photograph of his gravestone. I wonder if  Uncle Thomas and Dr. Charles and the good doctor have any good late-night chats.

Revolutionary War troops march through Yonkers along Mile Square Road. My Italian grandfather takes his young grandson to his second home, the St. Cosmo and St. Damien Club on lower Park Hill, where he plays cards and drinks shots of anisette. The steamer Henry Clay burns and sinks in the river off Yonkers, killing dozens – including the young sister of Nathaniel Hawthorne. Edward Hopper sets up his easel in Getty Square, the old downtown business district. Now, it’s referred to as Ghetto Square. A stagecoach pulls up in front of the old Getty Hotel. The stage coach becomes a trolley. The trolley becomes a bus. Out of the bus step Edgar Allan Poe (who visited Yonkers) the English poet John Masefield (who worked at the carpet mill), the cast of “Hello, Dolly!” (which takes place in Yonkers), TV comedian Sid Caesar and the poet Lawrence Ferlinghetti and the singer Mary J. Blige (all born in Yonkers). The last one off the bus is me.

I’m nine years old. It’s winter, so it’s already dark at 5 o’clock as I head home for supper. I walk up Spruce Street, turn left onto Linden Street, then turn right and walk up the steep incline of Elm Street, up past Oak Street, finally turning left onto Walnut Street, blazing a trail through the forest of streets until I’m safe at home. I pause on the front porch and look up at the winter sky. Usually the lights of the city blot out the stars. But tonight I see hundreds of stars. My eyes move from one to another to another, noticing a pattern, recognizing the shapes of letters, realizing that the letters form words, like a marquee in the sky. The marquee proclaims:  WELCOME TO THE CITY OF GRACIOUS LIVING!

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