“We set out that night for the cold in the North…”

Well, not quite, since it was only mid-November, and right around then winter was bearing down hard on  Niagara Falls, New York, but it was warm enough that — fortified by strong alcohol and a strong sense of destiny — that my friend Phil and I set up camp that night outside the Niagara Falls Convention Center and waited to buy tickets in the morning for a show the next night by Bob Dylan’s Rolling Thunder Revue.

We were so young. I remember thinking that it was amazing that Dylan was out on the road again, performing again, at the ripe old age of…what, I guess ol’ Bob was about 35 years old!

There was an afternoon show and an evening show on Nov. 15, 1975. We went to the evening show with two girl friends. Here’s the set list from the show we attended: (not including songs by other performers — the featured guest star when we saw Rolling Thunder was Joni Mitchell):

When I Paint My Masterpiece
It Ain't Me, Babe
It Takes A Lot To Laugh, It Takes A Train To Cry
The Lonesome Death Of Hattie Carroll
Romance In Durango
Isis
Blowin' In The Wind
I Dreamed I Saw St. Augustine
Never Let Me Go
Mama, You Been On My Mind
I Shall Be Released
Love Minus Zero/No Limit
Tangled Up In Blue
Oh, Sister
Hurricane
One More Cup Of Coffee (Valley Below)
Sara
Just Like A Woman
Knockin' On Heaven's Door
This Land Is Your Land

Friend Phil recalls this: I remember clearly the rendition of “Tangled Up In Blue’, when he changed the lyric “Some are carpenters’ wives” to “Some are truck drivers’ wives”.

Me, I remember that the most impressive and thrilling songs were the songs from the new album “Desire” — “Romance in Durango,” “Oh Sister,” “Hurricane,” “One More Cup of Coffee” and “Sara”; the powerful symbolism of Dylan and his merry band doing a finale of “This Land Is Your Land” in tribute to Woody Guthrie and with a nod toward the upcoming bicentennial (as an idiot wind blew from the Grand Coulee Dam to the Capitol…); and, I believe, a duet with none-other-than Joan Baez on “Mama you’ve Been On My Mind.” I remember being in a bar in Niagara Falls when a girl I knew ran in and excitedly handed me a handbill she’d just been handed by some guy on the street — a handbill for the Rolling Thunder Revue.

I remember that a girl named Lee — blonde and beautiful Lee — came with me to the concert, to which I wore a stupid black fedora, which fedora Lee decided sometime during that evening to wear over her long golden locks, and I never saw that fedora again. As I recall, we had great seats in the middle orchestra, no more than ten rows back from the stage. I have a vivid image of Dylan wearing that clear plastic mask and a hat just like the hat he wears on the cover of “Desire” and he’s standing at the microphone without his guitar doing a sort of hipster pantomine as he sings “Isis.” I remember falling in love, alternately, with Joni Mitchell, Roni Blakely and Scarlet Rivera. I remember that the show opened with a song by Ramblin’ Jack Elliot, who was dressed very much like Dylan and looked very much like Dylan and until he started singing many people in the audience were cheering because they mistakenly thought he WAS Bob Dylan.

Memories of Rolling Thunder from more than thirty years ago….still echoing as I listened last night to the sound of distant thunder and flashes of light in the northwest sky…as my son and I get ready to head North for this weekend’s show in Saratoga Springs featuring Bob Dylan and his band with LEVON HELM and others. I promise to not wear a black fedora and I promise to report back on this coming Sunday’s performance by the man my friend and fellow writer Steve Hart has dubbed “His Bobness.”

Soul man

A friend complains that I claimed to have written about the late, great Isaac Hayes — but all she found on my post about his death was a link to a youtube video. OK. She’s right. Here’s what I think about Isaac Hayes.

He was larger than life and hard to ignore — but his genius was still overlooked. The video I posted showed a performance by the head-shaved, bare-chested, gold-chained, half growling/half-crooning Isaac Hayes of the “Shaft” era. But we’re also talking about a great songwriter and producer for the legendary Stax records. He wrote “Hold On I’m Coming” and “Soul Man,” the songs by Sam and Dave. He helped shape R&B, soul music, disco and hip-hop. He played piano on Otis Redding sessions. He did an 18-minute-long interpretation of Jimmy Webb’s “By the Time I Get to Phoenix.” He “rapped” before they called it rap. He’s a member of the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. He won two Grammys and an Academy Award. He was the voice of the Chef on “South Park.” His performance was one of the highlights of the concert and film “Wattstax.”

Isaac Hayes performs at Wattstax

 

Ladies and gentlemen…”Black Moses…” lead singer/arranger for Isaac Hayes and the Soul Men, heaven’s coolest celestial choir.

If I die before I wake

This is the latest in a series of essays titled “Man Has Premonition of Own Death”‘

Are you ever afraid of falling asleep? Does the thought cross your mind that this might be the night when you fall asleep and never awaken? Have you ever thought about what it means when someone says “He died in his sleep?”
Is it possible to die without waking up? Isn’t that sort of the ultimate alarm clock?
You’re sleeping and then your heart starts pounding crazily or a blood vessel explodes or a stroke jolts your brain. Wouldn’t that wake you up? Even if you died in a second, wouldn’t there be that one second when you shoot upright in your bed and see grinning Mister Death in his dark cloak and with his burning eyes and sharp scythe standing at the foot of your bed?
 
No, I don’t buy it. Those are comforting words – “He died in his sleep” – but I think it’s more likely that death is a rude awakening.

“And then you’ll be blue. Bluer than indigo.”

That’s a line from the Tom Robbins novel “Jitterbug Perfume,” and it alludes to the possibility that the disciple’s knowledge has exceeded the teacher’s. And that’s a way for me to make note of two interesting things that happened today — already, and it’s still mid-morning:

First interesting thing that happened today:

Message on my cellphone from my poet-photographer-artist daughter Emily. Her message: I should read “Jitterbug Perfume” because she thought I might like it. I haven’t spoken to her yet, but I bet Robbins’ style reminds her of my quirky, provocative but funny, accessible and unpublished novel “Gloryville.”

Here’s a photo of Tom Robbins by Michael Romanos.

http://www.michaelromanos.com/pictures/stock_photos/tom_robbins.jpg

(If my daughter Emily’s not available to take my author photo when the publishing god descends from the heavens to lift up “Gloryville” to the top of the New York Times best-seller list, then I want Romanos to take the photo. Check out some of his other portraits at michaelromanos.com)

Second interesting thing that happened today:

Faithful readers will recall a short piece I wrote about the great ’60s band The (Young) Rascals. Well, what goes around….et cetera…I just passed an electronic billboard announcing a free concert at Deer Path Park in Hunterdon County, N.J., by a group called “Felix Cavaliere’s Rascals,” which features Felix on keyboards and vocals — and three other guys who were not original Rascals. Anyway, here’s a link to a performance by Felix with his band of ersatz Rascals:

http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=4jy5vhmRL8c&feature=related

And here’s more information about the free concert:

August 14 – Felix Cavaliere’s Rascals — A legendary artist with several classic smash hits, Cavaliere has rocked millions of fans with his soulful singing and songwriting skills as founder/leader of The Rascals. The talent and drive that catapulted Felix Cavaliere to international fame sounds as fresh and exciting as ever, by an artist whose commitment to his craft has not diminished with the passage of time. Felix was the main creative force behind The Rascals who had four #1 hits, six Top 20 singles like “Good Lovin’,” “Girl Like You,” “I’ve Been Lonely Too Long,” “Groovin’,” “You Better Run,” “A Beautiful Morning,” and the inspiring “People Got To Be Free.” Cavaliere was inducted into the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame in 1997. Hot dogs, popcorn, chips, candy, ice cream, and drinks will be available. Spectators are encouraged to bring lawn chairs and a flashlight. For more information call 908-782-1158.

Second interesting thing that happened today, part two:

Well, interesting and depressing might be more accurate. Turns out Felix and his cats are touring as part of a summer concert series dubbed Hippiefest presented by Flower Power Concerts, Inc.

I’m not making this up. Here’s the poster:

http://backtorockville.typepad.com/back_to_rockville/images/2007/07/19/hippie.jpg

Far out!? Groovy?! Bring your parents, your grandparents, and bring your kids!!!!

I’ve got one thing to say: Bummer.

I wonder what Tom Robbins (who, by the way, is now past 70 years old!) would say. Maybe this, a quote from Still Life With Woodpecker:” “It’s never too late to have a happy childhood.”

Can you dig it?

One day soon — I promise — I will write a little bit about the time I saw Chaka Khan and Rufus perform in Niagara Falls, N.Y. Meanwhile, here’s a link to video of a live performance in 1973 by the late, great Isaac Hayes. who died today (08/10/2008):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L2cHkMwzOiM&feature=related

The Hills of Arroyo

The following excerpt from the novel “The Dogs of Arroyo” was published in the anthology “The Caribbean Writer.”

THE HILLS OF ARROYO

By Nicholas DiGiovanni

   When it happened, it happened quickly, yet Harrison White could recall every detail. Sometimes it was as though someone had turned the episode into a movie, seen over and over until he had memorized every scene and every line of the screenplay. Other times, it was as if he hadn’t seen the movie for a long time, remembered the gist of it, but had the sequence of events confused into a jumble of images: the secluded mountain road, the boy at the roadside stand, the mangy wild dog, the machete’s glint, the strange woman, two small candles and statues seen through a dirty window, and a blurred rush of images seen through the glare of a car’s windshield.

  Mostly, though, it was as if someone, somehow, had caught it all on film, then turned the film into slides, so each flickering frame could be stopped and frozen on the screen to be studied and analyzed, like a rare and exotic butterfly that’s been gently but cruelly pinned alive on a square of cardboard.

   Frame one shows Harrison White in his rental car, pulled over to the side of the two-lane paved road called Highway 3. It is early morning but the car’s windows are closed; the air-conditioning is turned on full-blast — it’s uncomfortably warm and steamy outside, even at nine in the morning. White is examining a road map, trying to figure the best way to get from the small town of Arroyo back to the city of San Juan, where he has an important appointment that afternoon.

   The next frame in the sequence of slides shows White folding the map after deciding that cutting across and over the mountains, taking a two-lane road called Highway 15, appears to be a shortcut to the expressway, Highway 52, which runs from Ponce northwest to the sprawling town of Cayey in the center of the island, then northward to the old capital.

   In the next frame we see the rental car – a small white Ford Tempo with slightly dented Puerto Rico license plates – as it winds through the narrow and crowded streets of Arroyo. White follows the hard-to-follow signs for Highway 15, then begins climbing slowly up the steep road into the foothills to the north on the outskirts of town.

   Next there are several frames showing what White sees out the windows as he drives the car up the hill, passing through a neighborhood where he is surprised to see such a disparity of wealth in such proximity.  He rounds a bend and comes upon a well-maintained house: rough white stucco with a red tile roof, surrounded by cast-iron gates and fences, the grounds landscaped with flowering plants, with gardenias, hibiscus and jasmine, orchids and carallita, the house shaded by palm trees or one of the brilliant flamboyant trees, with their scarlet-red leaves, that you see all over the island.

   Right next door there is a small, slightly tilted shack constructed of mud-stained and cracked plywood and rusted sheets of tin. There are torn and dirty brown curtains in its unwashed windows. Its small unpainted porch is leaning and half-collapsed, apparently held together by thick green vines. The overgrown yard around the house is choked and smothered in dry weeds and grass, thick and tall.  

   He passes many of these houses. At each, inevitably, there is a rusted old Ford Fairlane or Chevy Biscayne or Plymouth Fury in the front yard; shabbily dressed children chase each other, or toss a ball, or play with a skinny, panting dog near the potholed street; unshaven middle-aged men sit in a row of wooden chairs in front of each house, always with a curious and somehow disconcerting glance as his rental car passes by and ripples the roadside weeds in its wake.

   As the houses become more scattered, with more vacant land in between, and as the road begins to get steeper and more winding, White thinks maybe he has miscalculated. To look at the map, the stretch of Highway 15 between Arroyo and Cayey seemed only a short drive, maybe a half-hour ride, a good alternative to taking Highway 3 far to the southwest to get on the expressway near Ponce.

   But the map didn’t show topography. It didn’t show – although he might have realized what he was getting himself into, if he had just looked up and ahead when he reached the turnoff outside of Arroyo – the imposing barrier looming between where White had been and where White was going.

   Now he realizes for the first time how high these mountains really are. The road has narrowed and seems wide enough at some points for only one car at a time to pass. In order to traverse this mountain range in the center of Puerto Rico, the engineers and construction crews had been forced to follow a serpentine route – you can’t, after all, build a straight road right up the side and over the top of a mountain – and the road slithers up the mountainside, with short straight runs ending in hairpin curves, followed by another short straight stretch and then quickly by another sudden sharp turn.

   At many of the curves, nothing more than a crumbling old stone wall or a broken metal guardrail separates the road from an stunningly steep and straight drop into a deep ravine. Several times White feels the shiver of vertigo as his car scales the mountain road and he rounds a curve, trying to stay as close as possible to the mountain wall, looking out for miles over the brown dry hills and increasingly tiny houses and the distant town of Arroyo below, so high that he can occasionally catch glimpses of the blue-green waters of the Caribbean near Guuyama and Salinas, the air so crisp and sharp that he can even detect the churning wakes of cruise ships out on the gentle smooth sea, so high that he might even be able to see all the way across to Venezuela, if not for the curve of the earth – he is so high and the view so crisp and clear.

   He now realizes this route is going to take somewhat longer than he had expected, but he still has plenty of time. White’s appointment in San Juan with Tito Cochino is not until four o’clock, and it is still mid-morning. Once he reaches the highway at Cayey, it should take him forty-five minutes on the expressway to reach San Juan, then undoubtedly another forty-minutes to make it through the heavy traffic on the tangle of highways circling new San Juan and to navigate the crowded streets and slow-moving traffic in Old San Juan, where he is to meet Cochino at the El Convento on Calle Cristo for dinner, drinks and, hopefully, the signing of their final contract.

   Just after he rounds another sharp bend, about halfway up the mountain, White comes on a small roadside stand where a woman is selling bags of oranges and bunches of plantains (both green and yellow) and something called coco frios. During his two days of driving around the island, he had passed many of these roadside vendors — at least half, just like this crude stand, with hand-painted signs advertising coco frios. He wasn’t sure what this was. He assumed coco might have something to do with coconuts. As for frios, he figured that meant cold, as in frigid. He guessed the stands might be selling cups of cold coconut milk. This seemed like a good guess and it seems like not a bad idea, to stop and get something cool to drink.

   White pulls over near the stand, gets out of the car, and asks the woman, Coco frio, por favor? Uno.

   Sitting behind her on a large rock is a boy White had not noticed from the car, a skinny kid with straight brown hair and dark skin.

   Without saying a word, the boy, about 12, reaches into an old red-and-white plastic picnic cooler and takes out a large brown coconut, then reaches under a black wooden table and pulls out a gleaming steel machete. With a sharp movement he swings the machete blade, driving it into the top of the coconut cradled between his bony knees, and with three quick slashes carves a big notch out of the fruit. He takes another tool, sort of like a drill bit, and hammers it into the notch with the handle of the machete. The boy hands the coconut to the woman; White figures she must be the boy’s mother. The woman reaches into a cardboard box, takes out a straw and unwraps it, then sticks the straw into the hole the boy has drilled into the top of the coconut.

   One dollar, she says in English as she hands it to him.

   As White gives her the dollar bill, he looks past her to the boy. He is now sitting on top of the closed cooler, staring straight at him with dark eyes, not appearing to even blink, a slight grin on his face. He is wearing torn brown Levis, old black Pro Keds sneakers, and a white Roberto Clemente T-shirt with a colorful cartoon caricature of the great baseball star in his Pittsburgh Pirates cap. The boy points the sharp tip of the machete straight at him and then says in clear English with only a slight accent: God bless America!  Behind the boy, nailed to a cracked wooden partition, is a rusted old Coca-Cola sign – rum, coffee, bottled water and Coca-Cola might be all the Puerto Ricans ever drink, White thinks  - and a faded poster: Muerte al imperialismo Yankee. Death to Yankee imperialism.

   Then the boy smiles at White again and shouts Saludos y buen viaje! The boy has wished him a good trip and a good life – but the American businessman, looking over the boy’s shoulder at the poster, suspects the boy doesn’t really mean it.

   Hoping this budding Che Guevara hasn’t let the air out of the rental car’s tires when he wasn’t looking, White says adios to the mother and walks back to the rental car. The tires are still inflated. The road map is where he left it on the front seat. His camera is still in the glove box, along with the car-rental agency’s registration and insurance cards. The engine starts immediately when White turns the ignition key, so he knows no one has poured Puerto Rican cane sugar into the tank.

   He locks the doors, turns up the air, and continues up the mountain road, the position of the sun over the hills and the clock on the dashboard both confirming that it is now nearly noon.  He figures he must be close to the expressway. And he still has four hours before his appointment with Cochino.

   After he has driven another quarter-mile or so, three or four straight stretches and three or four sharp curves, White comes upon a small roadside chapel, a shrine to Our Lady of Guadalupe, who once made glorious roses bloom in the cloak of a simple peasant.

   There is room to pull the car off the road and park in front of the tiny church; White stops there and gets out of the car, deciding to drink his coco frios and eat a pastry he purchased at a bakery in Arroyo — a flaky crust that is filled with slightly bitter cheese and very sweet guava jelly.

   The chapel is made of pale tan stucco, the wood framing around its edges painted a glossy red.  Its design is simple – it looks almost like an old one-room schoolhouse in America, simple and plain, except for the red trim and a small ornate steeple at the peak of the roof above the front door.

   There is a low wall around the chapel and a black iron gate at the entrance; the gate is open, but when he tries the door of the chapel, it is locked.

   White looks through a small window and can make out two short rows of wooden pews, a simple altar adorned with a pair of brass candlesticks and a wooden crucifix – and, just below the window, a long shelf lined with small figures of saints. He recognizes hard-working and unquestioning Joseph, who is holding the hand of young Jesus; gentle Francis of Assisi, who has a sparrow perched on his outstretched arm; the two great martyrs Sebastian and Jerome, consumed by their holy agony; pale and rapturous Teresa of Avila, who clutches a radiant bouquet of pure white flowers; the kindly St. Anthony, with the Infant cradled in his outstretched hand; and several statues of the Virgin Mother herself – scared and humble young Mary visited by the archangel, pure and sweet Mary cradling the perfect infant, long-suffering Mary weeping at the foot of the cross, Mary blissful and peaceful as she ascends to heaven; tres reyes, the Three Wise Men, bearing their exotic gifts and their burdensome knowledge; la Virgin del Pozo (who appeared to the child Juan Angel Collado in 1953 and some say still appears there); and the Baptist, San Juan himself – the visitor does not know, but today is the day of the great saint’s feast, and today the faithful will walk backwards into the sea three times and this will bring them good luck.

   This is why the chapel door is kept locked, to keep out touristos like him. In the gift shops of Old San Juan, the famed Puerto Rican santos, small figures of saints carved and whittled by peasant craftsmen, sell for hundreds of dollars, even thousands of dollars for chipped and primitive and supposedly antique santos like the ones he has seen locked into a glass cabinet in a gift shop on the main plaza of Ponce and now is admiring through the windows of this mountain chapel.

   The rear of the chapel comes within ten feet of a sheer cliff over a ravine, which opens into a hillside field planted with banana trees; he thinks this might be where the woman’s plantains are grown and harvested. Beyond that grove he can see more farm fields, hazy and shimmering in the noonday sun, with crops of tobacco and corn and guava and pineapple and cocoa and coffee and yucca and more bananas planted on terraced ledges sweeping down to the flat plains at sea level near the Caribbean.

   In those more distant fields are men working in the sugar-cane fields; White cannot see them so far way, but he knows they are there – here and there, in the sky over those flat stretches, clouds of black smoke drift in the sea breeze; White can see flames, dark orange slivers of fire slithering through the fields and hills. These fires have been lit to clear the brush to make it easier to cut the cane; a fringe benefit is that the sugar produced by the burned cane is the secret ingredient in the island’s smooth but strong dark rum. The sweet aroma of the burning sugar rises into the breeze and drifts up the valley and ravines to the mountains, mingling with the pungent scents of the tobacco and coffee, blending with the sweetness of the ripening plantains, combining with the soft salty wind and the scorching 12 o’clock sun to leave White feeling sleepy and almost intoxicated.

   He sits down behind the chapel, looks out over the lush hills, and eats his guava pastry and sips the still-chilled coconut milk, which is not as sweet as he imagined it would be.

   Then White hears two sounds: the chapel door creaking slightly as someone closes it and a car door slamming shut. He runs around to the front of the chapel. There is no one there; but he hears the quick beat of pounding feet and the click and rustle of kicked gravel; someone is running away, running down the mountain road.

   White shouts and runs back to where he parked the car. He opens the front door on the passenger side, and leans in and opens the glove compartment – his camera is still there.  But on the front seat, torn and shredded, is the road map. There appears to be no other damage to the car.

   Then White remembers hearing what he had thought was the chapel door being closed. He locks the rental car and takes the keys, then approaches the chapel, hesitating for a moment at the gate when he realizes someone might still be there, hiding inside. But when he tries the door, it is still locked – or has been locked again.

   He goes to the window he looked in before. The wooden santos are still there on the shelf – but every one has been moved, turned away from the window, their backs toward him so he can no longer see their faces.

   On the simple altar, the two candles have been lit and are still burning, a thin plume of smoke rising from each.

   Between them is a dead dog, its head cut off, wax dripping off the candles and hissing into a small pool of fresh blood.

   White is now anxious and unnerved – in part because he still doesn’t know how far he is from the highway and feels he now has to hurry to get to San Juan, in part because of the strange sly boy with the shiny machete, because of the shredded road map, because of the fading footsteps he is sure he heard, and because of the mystery of this place where the mountain folk believe in voodoo and magic and sacrifice dogs at bloody altars but also whittle saints out of wood and build shrines to a Virgin who made roses bloom where no rose had bloomed before.

   The smoke you see in the pink sky at sunset might be smoke from the sugar-cane fields, but it could be the smoke of a car in flames, maybe stolen, maybe just broken beyond repair, doused with gasoline and ignited, its black burned frame left amid the clutter in some ravine filled with weeds and flowers and rusted old cars.

   The Caribbean might wash over you like a warm bath, like holy water, cleansing your soul of all worries and fears, smooth and steady waves caressing tired muscles and refreshing tired hearts, but one step into those whispering waves might bring the sting of the man-of-war, or the jolt of a sea urchin’s needle, or even a taste – when you swallowed some of the salty water – of the mingled blood of someone who drowned at this very beach and was never found, or even the powdered dust of the bones of sailors and explorers who thought they had finally found Cathay but died when their ships hit hidden reefs, the flesh of their drowned bodies chewed by crabs, their bones smoothed and polished by the current and twisted like driftwood, then pulverized and turned to dust by the surf and winds and sand, and this dust blended into the water, and you might even taste this bone dust in your mouth as you drift like a dead man in the waves at Arroyo beach.

   In the shadows of a luxury hotel, where pale and pudgy tourists sip five-dollar pina coladas served by smiling waiters, there are slums where brown dirty drinking water drips out of rusted spigots and the waiters and maids walk home late at night and curse the filthy touristos who treat then like they are animals. Muerte!

   In this strange land, the trade winds whisper secrets, and caves are hidden deep within the mountains, and wild dogs live in the those caves, and these dogs roam in packs along the roadsides, where one-legged beggars limp up to cars to wash windshields with dirty damp rags right outside the grand museum at Ponce, where a Christ by Goya hangs.

 

****

   Harrison White is speeding along the narrow mountain road, rushing now to make it in time for his meeting in San Juan with Tito Cochino.

   White has become more familiar with the twists and turns on this road, the straightaways and curves coming at regular and predictable intervals. He has learned to ease his foot off the gas pedal and hug the right side of the road as he enters and rounds each bend, then to accelerate as he comes out of the bend into the next straight run, so he is driving slightly faster than he was before.

   And this is where the slide show, the individual frozen frames, now becomes like rough takes of a movie, all crazy angles and bursts of light and sudden shadows, speeding through the spinning reels so quickly that you must watch carefully to comprehend what has been captured on the film.

   As White drives the white rented Ford around another curve, a small black dog darts out in front of his car.

   It’s one of those wild dogs. He has seen them all over the island, and he has learned to watch out for them by the roadsides, but he had not encountered any on this road until this moment, so he is not ready to react quickly.

   White swerves the car to the left to avoid hitting the dog. but then instinctively remembers the cliff dropping off on the other side of the road. He jerks the steering wheel back to the right, the back wheels of the car fishtailing in the dirt and gravel.

   But there’s a stone cliff to the right, and the dog is still there in the car’s path, so White’s reflexes and instincts kick in, and he swerves the car back to the left again.

   A peasant, apparently an old man, is walking along the roadside, right at the edge of the ravine. He’s carrying some kind of bundle on his back. It looks like a canvas sack. It may be filled with sugar-cane stalks. Perhaps he’s taking bunches of green bananas down the road to the woman’s stand.

   The American can’t see the peasant’s eyes because he is wearing a tan straw hat, and the wide brim is pulled down over his forehead. He’s wearing loose-fitting white pants and a tan-colored blouse. His arms, held above his head to steady the bundle, are surprisingly muscular.

   The wild dog trots toward the peasant, who begins to lean over, apparently to put down his load. He doesn’t seem at all aware of the car heading toward him.  White yanks the wheel to the right once more. The peasant finally gazes toward the car, with a look of surprise. The rear of the car fishtails again as White tries to avoid hitting the man and the dog.  The back of the rear of the car spins out in the loose gravel, and White hears a thump — one dull thump.

   Here the movie should be in slow motion. The car doesn’t hit the peasant with great impact, but it’s enough, a nudge, a caress, a kiss. The man loses his balance, tumbles to his right, appears to try to grab his pack, then reaches for the low stone wall at the edge of the cliff. But he can’t regain his balance. He tumbles over the edge.

   He was there. Now he’s not. Gone. White quickly stops the car, throws open the door, and runs to the wall. He doesn’t see the dog anywhere.

  This doesn’t seem real. This can’t be happening. He looks down over the stone wall, down into the ravine. It’s at least a forty-foot drop. At the bottom, he sees piles of boulders and thick clumps of weeds.  He sees no sign of the peasant. And he doesn’t hear anything – no moans, no cries, no calls for help, no screams. Nothing is moving. He knows the peasant must be dead.

  The bundle the man was carrying is on the ground at the edge of the cliff. It has split open. It’s filled with green bananas. White kicks the pack down into the ravine and watches as it bounces down the sheer stone wall, then hits the rocks and scatters, then is also lost in the thick weeds.

   White’s first impulse is to climb down the cliff, to see if the peasant is still alive, then call an ambulance or call the police.

   But where would he find a telephone on this mountain? Should he drive all the way down the mountain road to Arroyo to get help? What about his appointment with Cochino?  It has to be well past noon.

   He didn’t really hit the man hard, just bumped him and nudged him enough so he lost his balance and fell. And who knows? Maybe the man didn’t really die from falling down the cliff. Maybe he had a heart attack or a stroke. Maybe the car didn’t even really hit him hard enough to push him over the edge. Maybe he died of natural causes. Maybe he’s actually alive — bruised and hurt, but alive.

   White doesn’t want to deal with the undoubtedly corrupt island police, especially in a small town like Arroyo. He doesn’t know anyone here. How would he find a good lawyer? Who would make sure he was treated justly? Who would look out for an American businessman?  Cochino? Maybe, but he has yet to even meet the famous man.  What if he is put in jail, even for a brief time? White imagines the jails must be horrible on this island. He doesn’t want to go to jail, not here. And the sun is dropping in the sky.  He has to hurry if he is going to make it to his appointment with Cochino.

   White looks down over the cliff once more. Nothing moves. If he leaves, no one will know. There is no sound. He looks around again. He can drive to San Juan, return the rental car, take a cab to his meeting. No one will ever know.

   Perhaps the old man lived alone, but maybe he had family who might report him missing. But who would think to look for him down in this deep ravine? Who could possibly find the body? The old man will be reported missing, there will be some sort of search, but the evidence of what happened will never be found.  The old man’s corpse will quickly decompose and dissolve in this heavy endless heat. Before long, there will be nothing left but bones, bleached and baked, hidden in those thick weeds.

 There’s no reason to tell anyone, no reason to stay. Just get back in the car, find the damned highway, and try not to get lost on the way to San Juan.

                                       

”Cada perro lo tiene es día.”

I think the title of this entry translates to either “I am a jelly doughnut” or (more likely) “Every dog has its day.” To wit, this Aug. 6. 2008, report from The Associated Press:

ARECIBO, Puerto Rico: A pack of about 30 wild dogs have invaded an elementary school
in Puerto Rico and forced it to shut down. School director Jose Mejias says a pit bull almost attacked a student before employees chased it away and the school was temporarily closed as a safety precaution. Most of the dogs that had entered the school were caught by Wednesday afternoon.

About 100 people gathered outside to complain that authorities were too slow to respond to the invasion in the coastal town of Arecibo. Parent William Medina said an estimated 30 dogs were on the loose. Animal activists accuse Puerto Rico’s government of not doing enough to prevent widespread abandonment and abuse of pets across the island.

Your observant correspondent has seen first-hand the feral dogs on the beautiful island of Puerto Rico. And those dogs are key characters in my unpublished novel, “The Dogs of Arroyo.” So, give me a minute, and I’ll post a piece called “The Hills of Arroyo,” an excerpt from the novel, which was published last year in a wonderful annual anthology titled “The Caribbean Writer.”

Dangling conversations

Want my son to start laughing hysterically? Try singing a few verses from the Simon and Garfunkel song “The Dangling Conversation.”

What the hell…Damn the torpedos! Here’s the entire song:

It’s a still life water color,
Of a now late afternoon,
As the sun shines through the curtained lace
And shadows wash the room.
And we sit and drink our coffee
Couched in our indifference,
Like shells upon the shore
You can hear the ocean roar
In the dangling conversation
And the superficial sighs,
Are the borders of our lives.

And you read your Emily Dickinson,
And I my Robert Frost,
And we note our place with bookmarkers
That measure what weve lost.
Like a poem poorly written
We are verses out of rhythm,
Couplets out of rhyme,
In syncopated time
Lost in the dangling conversation
And the superficial sighs,
Are the borders of our lives.

Yes, we speak of things that matter,
With words that must be said,
Can analysis be worthwhile?
Is the theater really dead?
And how the room is softly faded
And I only kiss your shadow,
I cannot feel your hand,
Youre a stranger now unto me
Lost in the dangling conversation.
And the superficial sighs,
In the borders of our lives.

Here’s an early photo of Paul Simon and Art Garfunkel:.

My theory is that they’ve had a discussion about the poems of Emily Dickinson and Robert Frost and are now trying to figure out whether a “bookmarker” is the same thing as a “bookmark.”

Anyway…Paul Simon went on, of course, to write dozens of amazing songs. Here’s a partial list: Fifty Ways to Leave Your Lover, American Tune, America, The Boxer, Bridge Over Troubled Water, Darling Lorraine, Duncan, Diamonds the Soles of Her Shoes, Fakin’ It, A Hazy Shade Of Winter, Hearts And Bones, Homeward Bound, Kathy’s Song, Kodachrome, The Late, Great, Johnny Ace, Mother And Child Reunion, Mrs. Robinson, One Man’s Ceiling Is Another Man’s Floor, The Only Living Boy In New York, Rene and Georgette Magritte With Their Dog After The War, Slip Slidin’ Away, Something So Right, Still Crazy After All These Years and Train In The Distance.

So…Here’s my theory. Maybe we can blame Art Garfunkel for the literary pretension oozing out of just about every word in “Dangling Conversation.”

Here’s what inspired my theory: The discovery that Art Garfunkel actually has a Web site, updated regularly, in which he lists every single book he’s ever read — or claims to have read. Bookmark — or bookmarker — this link: http://www.artgarfunkel.com/library.html

Original child

The great peace activist and contemplative, the late Thomas Merton, wrote a poem about the destruction of Hiroshima and Nagasaki. 

Thomas Merton

Thomas Merton

Merton called the poem “Original Child Bomb.” Merton’s college roommate and best friend, the great poet Robert Lax, told me once that he thought “Original Child Bomb” might be Merton’s most powerful work. So here are excerpts from Merton’s poem to mark the 64th anniversary of that terrible day, Aug. 6, 1945, when the world changed forever.

Hiroshima after the bombing

Hiroshima after the bombing

The poem’s subtitle is: Points for meditation to be scratched on the walls of a cave.

In the year 1945 an Original Child was born. The name Original Child was given to it by the Japanese people, who recognized that it was the first of its kind.

The time was coming for the new bomb to be tested, in the New Mexico desert. A name was chosen to designate this secret operation. It was called “Trinity.”

At 5:30 A.M. on July 16th, 1945, a plutonium bomb was successfully exploded in the desert at Almagordo, New Mexico. It was suspended from a hundred foot steel tower which evaporated. There was a fireball a mile wide. The great flash could be seen for a radius of 250 miles. A blind woman miles away said she perceived light. There was a cloud of smoke 40,000 feet high. It was shaped like a toadstool.

Many who saw the experiment expressed their satisfaction in religious terms. A semi-official report even quoted a religious book-The New Testament, “Lord, I believe, help thou my unbelief.” There was an atmosphere of devotion. It was a great act of faith. They believed the explosion was exceptionally powerful.

On August 1st the bomb was assembled in an airconditioned hut on Tinian. Those who handled the bomb referred to it as “Little Boy.” Their care for the Original Child was devoted and tender.

On August 4th the bombing crew on Tinian watched a movie of “Trinity” (the Almagordo Test). August 5th was a Sunday but there was little time for formal worship. They said a quick prayer that the war might end “very soon.” On that day, Col. Tibbetts, who was in command of the B-29 that was to drop the bomb, felt that his bomber ought to have a name. He baptized it Enola Gay, after his mother in Iowa. Col. Tibbetts was a well balanced man, and not sentimental. He did not have a nervous breakdown after the bombing, like some of the other members of the crew.

On Sunday afternoon “Little Boy” was brought out in procession and devoutly tucked away in the womb of Enola Gay. That evening few were able to sleep. They were as excited as little boys on Christmas Eve.

At 3:09 they reached Hiroshima and started the bomb run. The city was full of sun. The fliers could see the green grass in the gardens. No fighters rose up to meet them. There was no flack. No one in the city bothered to take cover.

The bomb exploded within 100 feet of the aiming point. The fireball was 18,000 feet across. The temperature at the center of the fireball was 100,000,000 degrees. The people who were near the center became nothing. The whole city was blown to bits and the ruins all caught fire instantly everywhere, burning briskly. 70,000 people were killed right away or died within a few hours. Those who did not die at once suffered great pain. Few of them were soldiers.

It took a little while for the rest of Japan to find out what had happened to Hiroshima. Papers were forbidden to publish any news of the new bomb. A four line item said that Hiroshima had been hit by incendiary bombs and added: “It seems that some damage was caused to the city and its vicinity.”

Then the military governor of the Prefecture of Hiroshima issued a proclamation full of martial spirit. To all the people without hands, without feet, with their faces falling off, with their intestines hanging out, with their whole bodies full of radiation, he declared: “We must not rest a single day in our war effort … We must bear in mind that the annihilation of the stubborn enemy is our road to revenge.” He was a professional soldier.

On August 9th another bomb was dropped on Nagasaki, though Hiroshima was still burning. On August 11th the Emperor overruled his high command and accepted the peace terms dictated at Potsdam. Yet for three days discussion continued, until on August 14th the surrender was made public and final.

As to the Original Child that was now born, President Truman summed up the philosophy of the situation in a few words. “We found the bomb” he said “and we used it.”

Since that summer many other bombs have been “found.” What is going to happen? At the time of writing, after a season of brisk speculation, men seem to be fatigued by the whole question.

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A parting thought (from me, not Merton)…This may be the best quote ever about what happened at Hiroshima. It’s by Viktor Frankl, author of the great book “Man’s Search for Meaning,” who had this to say:

 ”Since Auschwitz we know what man is capable of. And since Hiroshima we know what is at stake.”

Death’s legions

This is the latest in a series of essays titled “Man Has Premonition of Own Death.”

I read today that roughly 100 billion people have died since the first person was born. For some reason that makes me think of the painting by Pieter Bruegel the Elder, “The Triumph of Death.”

I guess I associate that overwhelming number of people – 100 billion gone! Gone where? – with the overwhelming chaos of death’s triumph in Bruegel’s painting.

Skeleton armies roam the land. Ships sink and cities burn. Skeletons hunt and kill the humans. A dog devours a child. Smoke darkens the sky. Horrible screams – you can’t see them but you know they’re there – fill the air. The bones of the skeletons scrape and click. Maybe most chilling of all: God’s legions are clearly incapable of halting the cruel and indiscriminate carnage.

"The Triumph of Death" by Bruegel the Elder

"The Triumph of Death" by Bruegel the Elder

Sylvia Plath in her poem “Two Views of a Cadaver Room” mentions the Brueghel painting and focuses on two lovers, tucked into a corner of the painting, who seem oblivious to the horrors swirling around them. Plath’s narrator seems to suggest that the couple represents hope that love can triumph over death. 

 

Me, I tend to think the couple are a couple of fools, and that the skeleton troops are simply saving the best – or worst – for last.

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